I think this is my problem. I am confused. I think one thing one day and the next I have changed and think another thing. It is not that I am lying, or being deceitful, or even manipulative. It is just that new and different things have occurred and what I once thought no longer is complete and new different thoughts and attitudes have come into play. So whereas once even a few days ago something was the way it was that has since changed with me. So do please forgive me if what I have said in the past no longer is reflected in my present actions and thoughts. Hopefully it is progression instead of digression, however any movement today seems better then the stuckness of the past.
I need to move forward today. Take the next step. Do the next right thing. Creating lists. Where do you want to go? Who do you want to be? What next? Needs? Wants? Desires? Expectations? For the Self? For the Other? From the Other? Willingness to change, willingness to become. Long ago the Phoenix. Rising from the ashes. The Phoenix a symbol of transformation. Burning the old self on the pyre giving rise to a new self. Once again. Transformation and regeneration. First thought today of the Phoenix. Not considered before a complete destruction of the self. Ego to strong and entrenched to allow a destruction. Ego to fragile to allow the self to be free. Transformation. Change. Rebirth. Where is the pyre? Where is the fire? Where is the catalyst? Bring forth. Symbology of change. Acts. What act is required to manifest the knowledge of change. What can be done to show to the world to the self that change has taken place. Ritual. Necessary. an act. a ceremony. We have not ceremony any longer? Create your own ceremony.
What do we manifest? Be open to possibility.
There is no one with complete answers. Just a glimpse, an idea. What has worked in the past, what may work. Factors unseen and unknown make it impossible to know and to act in full certainty. Our problems personally only answered through dedication and perseverance. Wanting and seeking the truth and acceptance of the answers when they come. Learning to act today in the right direction. It is possible to change. When we look toward others for the answers within ourselves we will never find the answer. We must look within. We can seek guidance and hear what others say but must know in the end it is us and only us with our relationship with the spirit with the answer.