Thursday, February 15, 2007

Daily Meditation

The state of self-realization, as we call it,
is not attaining something new or reaching some goal which is far away,
but simply being that which you always are and which you always have been. -Ramana Maharshi

It is really not easy being who we are. I am not who I am. Fear drives me to be someone I am not. Fear of rejection. Fear of doing the wrong thing/not doing the right thing, fear of hurting someone else/or myself, fear of change. It is a huge burden to try to act and doing the right all the time. It does not allow for mistakes or missteps, it does not allow for forgiving or forgetting. This self centered way of being is concerned only with the needs and wants of the self and does not allow anything different within the walls.

So we know who we are. We do forget that on occasion. Searching still yes. Seeking truth. Seeking a connection with the spirit, seeking to know and feel that all of the time. Knowing who we are is paramont. When we forget what do we do? Go back, go back to that which brings us comfort and peace. Go to a place within where we can listen to the spirit. Go to that place. Do you have such a place? If not, develop one. It is difficult at first. It is like doing something for the very first time. We do not know how to do this thing. To go within and find a place of comfort. There may be no place of comfort in there. Rocky kragles of rocks jutting out into the landscape of our souls. Even amongst these sharp stones, when we beginning looking we will find a clearing. Maybe just small enough for our two feet to strait. In time this clearing will build. It will clear itself. As we try again and again to go to this place withing we will find more peace and larger areas of comfort. At first a forgien surface appears to us and over time it becomes familiar. That is the boulder of my youth. That stone is but a dream I had. The crevice is from the playground. That fissure a broken heart. You can grab these things. Pick up those boulders and pebbles. Examine them. Know them. Put them back, break off chunks, repair the holes, cast out the ones no longer needed.
Come to know that place within. Make it comfortable. Return there time and again for healing and peace.

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