gone girl

the other night i was planning my disappearance. it was coming along well until i realized it was just gone girl

Owning a dog

I do not want to have a dog. I take that back, it would be great to have a dog. Just not everything that goes along with having a dog. They die, they get given away, they run away... all of those things. To love something knowing it is going to get gone at some point seems self destructive. 

Realized a couple of nights ago having a partner is the same thing. There is great love but you know it is going to end so all along the way protective barriers are erected in order to protect the self from the enveitalbe. 

but then but putting up the security, putting on the armor, causes the pain.