public

It is a bizarre experience being in public. This experience is usually alone at the house. Being inthemidsth of there is so odd. Those feelings of not knowing what to do and how to interact with others is deep. Feeling like I am the odd one out amid mint of the one out. Comfort in my own skin, not at all. What do I do or see. Does that I am make other people nervous? 

Being high at a concert seems different, being high with one other does not feel different. Being with others is ... I feel like I know everyone or should know everyone. That everyone looks famous or they should be. Notorious maybe more apt. 

I still have no idea how to interact with others. Explains why I do not go out to places that require contact and interaction. 

So I can be my self in what I perceive to be weird self and let go of the ego long enough to open the self to the experience. 

Still can not figure why everyone looks famous. Santa Fe famous. 

It is time to go home. But it really to much fun hanging out. Interesting to not know what to do. Where are the lines of being?  

Still no closer to knowing people but maybe that is more it in that everyone seems familiar. 

lodge

So I see on Instagram tonight that have a buddy that's building a sweat lodge in a intentional living community. Part of me is very excited and wow that would be awesome I need to go pour water poor. Another part of me goes that is insane they have no business doing that that is just so not right. So that I saw it on Instagram earlier the oponoapono  posting about cultural thieves and that's where we're at. So where am I in this.? I have no culture and have appropriated someone else's as my own.