reality

Wondering why we invent systems of belief? To bring comfort. To explain what can not be explained. Every culture has and does. man's search for meaning...

The big universal questions. And answers come in moments... Maybe if at all. 

how am I doing

So this morning at breakfast Laura asked how I was doing. After pause I said I'm just doing okay no big deal everything's all right. And that's just not really the truth. That feeling of loneliness it's heavy and it's not pleasant just being alone is painful in a way. I'm just tired of being that way. Companionship something physical fantasies fulfilled who knows.