lonely

So it really feels like this lack of intimacy physical intimacy that it's like a strange hollow key that can't be fulfilled it's a very odd desire. The wanting to be with someone and not being able to find anyone to be with. It's not really the oh my what's wrong with me or who I'm not desirable which are factors but where do you go to meet somebody how do you go to meet somebody what are the expectations what are the ramifications what are the all of the b******* that goes along with. I don't have time to have a significant other I don't have time to have someone in my life. But man that desire to have someone in my life is palpable. I think the false expectation and the false reality of online doesn't help.