16 lessons

So I was just thinking about the 16 chokecherry branches in the 16 chokecherry branches the 32 There are 16 lessons to be learned in this life there are 16 lessons to be learned in the spiritual life

I've always thought that the spiritual life was a separate life separate place a separate being just the place after we go when we die so I think now the physical life that we have is a human being in the spiritual life that we have is a human being they're one just like the separation of God from ourselves so we have the 16 lessons in the physical the 16 lessons in the spiritual but they coexist at the same time together

hold on

So I think maybe it's time for me to come and collect all of my things I don't know what is left. But I think it's time it's the holding on to a dream that I'm not sure I'll be able to continue to live so maybe even getting all the things moving back into my place and making it a home I can heal.

I want to be with you but I realize that you don't want me there with you so I need to let that go. Whatever it may be that we are I need to let that go so it can either live is a dream or fade away but I can't continue to hold on to the dream

the work

I don't want to do the work I just want the results

There are so many examples cleaning the floor it requires you to get down on your hands and knees and scrub to get it clean I'll go to the store and buy five different products that are supposed to clean the floor that don't because it requires the work of scrubbing.

I want to lose 40 lb I don't want to work out I don't want to eat right I don't want to give up sugar and don't want to give up bread I want the result I don't want to do the work.

I want to have a relationship I want to be in a relationship I want to have a loving caring ability but I'm not willing to do the work to maintain or to be in the relationship.

It's like when I'm doing something I do it halfway or I get it done but it's not pretty or there's always something left behind so nothing's ever really complete.

Spiritually or can I take a shortcut to get to the end or do I have to do on a daily basis to get there I don't read books I don't devote myself to meditation I dabble in play a bit but don't want to do the work to get to the end result part of it what is the end result

How does that tie into no joy no happiness how does that tie into what do I want wanting something requires work wanting something requires time and effort by not wanting I don't have to do the work.

So where does that come how do I Foster and develop the work? by doing.

4th grade classroom by choice. I just did not work.

Does this relate to having to be happy when doing chores?