Wolf

There is nothing like a fresh cup of joe in the morning. I had a hazelnut latte to start the day. Many thanks to my friend for picking it up too. What a delight.
It has been an interesting journey the past few weeks. I am learning a lot and trying to remain in the light. Many thanks to all of those who have helped me out as of late.
Peace. 

Posting via my phone. Cool.

Rejection

WHat is the nature of rejection? Where does the hurt lie (lay)? Rejection of part does not necessarily transfer to a rejection of the whole. Not every one wants what it is we want. perhaps it is an over involved sense of self leading to an greater feeling of rejection. It is therefore impossible to have ordinary relationships with fellow man due to an acute machinism that shows all rejection not is a reflection of the rejector but a magnifying glass upon the rejected?

Jig it y jig

That is the Home again, home again thing.
Santa Fe was great. go and visit. It is healing and grande. I do not think I could live there but what a great place to be for a while. It was a journey of introspection and beatitudes.
School begins for teachers on Tuesday. I am trying to get a schedule set for the studio for the fall. I am staying with my cousin Maggie for a while and am in between addresses but should have something soon.
Peace to each of you.

I drove thru Cordell today i just started crying for no reason

On the way to santa fe. Looking forward

Lessons and Themes

It was a great journey North to South Dakota. I got to look at a lot about myself. It was as if the blinders had been removed for the first time in a very long while. Reconnection with myself and with others and with all of creation. These things wanting to hold onto and not let go made it difficult to leave that place. Coming home life was still here and it is raw and hard and terrorifying. I hope to spend some time in the next little while detailing thoughts and feelings and getting them down so these things will not go away into the ether or into the nothingness and then I will forget the changes I had made. Needing to integrate the changes into the psychie and make them a part of me. Changes of thought and view instead of the thought and view of the old self.
Peace

Travel

I am heading for South Dakota on Friday. It is going to be a great trip. I am looking forward to the time. I will not be near a computer for a while.
Do not worry. I am really feeling pretty good.
I was in Skiatook yesterday. A friend of mine is opening a gallery there and wants to show our work. I think it is going to be a great oppertunity.
I will be back around August 2 or so and will be open to coffee anytime.
Andy

wonderment

I am thinking today that it is easier to not act. That is to say. I can do things that I feel are against my psychie, things that could (or could not be, who knows) destructive to my personal well being. Granted it could it could not. Effects unknown and unknowable. No harm or harm. It is easier to simply not act. Not that it really matters anyway.
I figured out last night that I am unlovable. That is not to say people don't love me because I know I am loved by others, friends and family. It is that thing about not being able to love another because we do not love ourselves. I think that may be one of many roots. I do not love myselft and therefore feel and have felt unworthy of the love of another.