cryptic

Wondering through prompting that if being cryptic in my words is defense. It allows me to say things in a way that is shadowed and not really clear. That said it could be a deception of words. Saying one thing and really meaning something else or leaving it open to interpretation as something else. So it is not really clear leading to mixed knowledge and false pretenses.
Wondering...

Life

Busy. Bee like busy.
Wondering, Wonderment, Wunderlust.
Knowing the self, searching for vital truths. Searching for the core of the soul. Seeing the scars of emotion left upon the soul and how to heal? White light opening up the heavens and the hand of God blessing the self taking away the pain and hurt and mistakes of thought and action is rare indeed. Healing takes place slowly and with great care. Forgiveness of the self, forgiveness for being human, being young, being untaught. Making up for the past by living the best way we can on this day at this time in this place. Seeking the good. Giving fully of the self in service of others. Knowing love and sharing it freely.
Peace comes. Live in peace and harmony with the self and with all of creation.
AMB

Coffee musings

Almost to tired to put a sentance together in any cohesive manner. Having pb, honey, banana at the red cup.

Coffee

BrewHaHa has movie night on Wednesday's. Spiderman is showing. Wireless internet. Good stuff. Decent coffee. Not the best in town. but Spiderman, can't go wrong.
Heard today from an old friend. very nice.
Revelations...
I had a revelation of sorts the other day. Told and then realized I can not make a decision. Not to say I am not capable of doing so but I can not decide. I choose to get run over by the bull as opposed to choosing either horn. I turn to others to make a decision for me. From going out to eat to life altering choices. Interesting to say the least.

Firefly

Western space serial drama. Great tv. We charged the furnace today, fulltank for wednesday.i think i am doing better but reminded to answer my phone, have not checked messages in over a week.

Believe

Was thinking tonight about faith. Someone said they do not believe in god. They know god and therefore do not have to believe.
I believe in the Easter Bunny, I believe in Santa Clause. It sounds most strange to say I believe in God when placed next to that grouping.

Heard tonight too, growing up I was told that sex was naughty, bad and dirty and to save that for someone you really care for.

Bad, bad contradictions of life.

Coffee Musings

In the discussion of the day we examined the sins of the flesh in Romans 8, but for me the living in spirit should be the focus. How to live as opposed to how not too.

Dinner

For the past two hours I have been working and blowing glass and thinking. Primary thought...Dinner. Cattlemen's Steakhouse.
Secondary thought becoming the primary thought... the next girl who walks into the studio this evening and I will buy her dinner at Cattleman's. If it conforms to the will of the universe. Wondering what it means now that no girls have come into the studio and I either get to eat alone or not eat at all.

That rain was great. We need a little of that everyday.

Peace.

If you read this and show up at the studio by 8:30 you are probably going to get a little dinner out of me.

Working

I was thinking I would get in a lot more internet time while at the glass studio but I am finding I do not have time as you can see by my infrequent updates to the blogs. I have not returned any phone calls this week either. It is just busy. If I do not call back immediately I forget and the list grows and I feel bad about not calling back and so do not call back. Vicious. Same thing you have heard before and I still do not solution it out...
Have fun.

Wait

I Very much do not like to wait. Two nights this week at both Wills and CocoFlow i left before being served. Strange.

Con panna times three

Sauced, Wills, and Starbucks in a shnrt window this evening. This leads me to believe i need a date. Not sure if it is bordem or not wanting to be alone or wanting to drive or love of the bean or fasination with baristas but i am ready for another. And so it goes. Wills was the best of the evening, smooth and rich a great cream almost too thick and sweet.