taking action

Listening to an interview today with Chuck palacek and he was talking about being the stupid one to introduce a thought knowing that that was not the case just to begin doing a dialogue. And it made me think about taking action the process of taking an action to get something moving. We all know what to do we've done it enough we have enough experience we know what to do. It's the beginning it's the taking of the action it's the willingness to be the stupid one and to make a mistake and to do it wrong and to know that that's okay and part of the process. It's very important to take an action just to do and begin and see where it goes.

Morning Zen

It is not really the end of a weekend or the beginning of a week. It is the day and the moment. There is a group of people who individually live thier lives in 24 hour segments. One day. On occasion it is one hour, one 10 minutes, one minute, one breath. And so it is that today is this day. Waking at 11:00 in the a.m. does not make it as waste of day or a waste of time or a loss, or time that will never be recovered. It was dreams, it was nurturing the self, it was healing, it simply was. And this day anew. 24 hours. one breath. I think this was 2008.

In Draft

A lot of what I have written in the past year or so is languashing in Drafts. The stream of conscienous writing that i felt did not deserve to be seen. I need to go through them and publish. Some of my thoughts are just in the moment and expressed but hold little weight now. At the time seemingly important. I really am feeling much more. More centered more secure more connected more at peace

Upon Waking

Yes, dawn and waking. Alarm sounds, snooze. but also the waking from a seemingly long hibernation. Waking to know again. Waking a dream, an illusion.

terra calente

First blush.

Buffet

$17

work work

So work has begun again. Work work not doing the work or working but work. It has been really good. It has a lot that did not really expect the mount of what had to be done all once. With the new start it seems like everything happens all at once there's not a buildup. I mean I prepared this summer and got ready for this time to come but I was not ready enough and didn't know how to prepare. So I think learning how to be ready is part of the key. Thinking of this summer and the work I do there. It is taking me years to know what to do and how to do it what's the process what comes next what's logical what has worked in the past what didn't work in the past. So learning a new all of those trial and errors and what comes next is difficult. So I need to learn how to make it work how to develop a method that is repeatable and or my notes are good enough that I can remember and don't have to look each time or don't have to relearn it I guess is what it is. I made a video last year of the process on creating for Google. And that was helpful on the remembering what comes next. So we are back at it full steam ahead and what comes comes hopefully we'll be ready hopefully I'll be ready.

Memory of pain

So I'm wondering about the memory of pain. Talking with a little fellow tonight we said something about the body remembers the body stores perhaps events and I'm thinking as those events in our lives get processed and placed there are points in our body that reflect those events. Why does my knee hurt? There's something there in the past that produces that pain. Something to work through something to learn from something to reprocess something that has reoccurred. And so what is the connection of that pain to who I am today. And why does it hurt? I became aware of a pain in my shoulder a few years ago. I went and released that pain and let It Go. I'm wondering how to release this pain today?

the heat

I was really hoping for a walk this evening and it just not cool off. I was tinkering around the house kind of putting away things sorting through some boxes. So is a productive evening but not walking wise. The walking seems to really help my flow of thought. And it was odd I noticed that the longer I sit the more my back hurts but when I get up and move and walk it didn't hurt so there's something to be said about walking in that way. So I need to just get up and walk even when it's a hot evening maybe earlier in the morning when it's cooler I should do a morning walk that's good yes I will have breakfast and walk there I'll get up a little bit earlier.p

travel

Well, I am on the road. It feels like when I walk I can process thought I can move through things and kind of see a different picture when I'm driving it's a different process the thoughts don't seem to collapse it's fleeting and maybe the speed involved I think that going 80 miles an hour down the highway the mind is also in a way going there quickly so it's hard for me to find what it is I'm looking for and describe it. So I have this one to talk and create and delve into for more understanding yeah I can't strange in between place so it's just driving and driving see what happens.

comfort

So, I'm really not sure what to say. Esoterically I feel like the universe is taking very good care that the way things are the way things are and within the mechanisms in the operations and the way everything is. I think even when I'm uncomfortable and even when I'm suffering or in pain or in doubt or fear or in those things the universe still brings comfort. And recognizing holding fast to the notion that of the abundant love of the universe. I think it's easy to see it when we are in the moment and aware or surrounded or fostering perhaps that abundant love. It's hard to see when the light is dimmed yeah it's hard to see when the light is dimmed. That makes sense but it's there and it is prevalent. Maybe that's the thing that sustains not even aware of.

seen

From the moment of commitment the universe conspires to assist you.