So I found myself wanting to say things knowing that the time was not right the place was not right and feeling like what I had to say would just fall on deaf ears. There was one day I tried to say how I was feeling in the reply that I received I felt badly about having felt or said what I did. So that makes me not want to open up anymore. That vulnerability the fear in the vulnerability. So that feeling of taking care of myself and expressing what I need gets put to the back again and maybe that's where it is and always has been maybe that's why I don't say anything at all. In protecting myself I'm actually doing myself a lot more harm.
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