what is best

I do not know what is best I honestly think that it's really good. But it's not fulfilling. I don't know what more I want and then esoterically not wanting is the key so when I don't want and it's really nice. There are certainly things I desire that aren't fulfilled. The ease of being alone is really nice.

So if they knew the real you and wanted to investigate the parts of you that you keep to yourself, then you might work a little harder at the relationship part because you are getting the nourishment you need...