comfort

So, I'm really not sure what to say. Esoterically I feel like the universe is taking very good care that the way things are the way things are and within the mechanisms in the operations and the way everything is. I think even when I'm uncomfortable and even when I'm suffering or in pain or in doubt or fear or in those things the universe still brings comfort. And recognizing holding fast to the notion that of the abundant love of the universe. I think it's easy to see it when we are in the moment and aware or surrounded or fostering perhaps that abundant love. It's hard to see when the light is dimmed yeah it's hard to see when the light is dimmed. That makes sense but it's there and it is prevalent. Maybe that's the thing that sustains not even aware of.

seen

From the moment of commitment the universe conspires to assist you.

Focus and the Journey

 The metaphors and the quotes. All roads. Travel well. Living is the journey. I think over time the well worn path became more well worn. Talking the other day. When I am walking I look at my feet and the path. Weary to misstep it is difficult to look around and enjoy the scenery. Maybe the spiritual path is similar. Focus and walking, and fear of falling. And the broad spiritual vista is missed. Focus again. Stop to take in the whole. Revitalize the self. 

protect the self

So a little epiphany, thank you for the prompt. It is necessary to protect the self. To be aware, to not get hurt. The only way I know/knew was to build up walls and amour, to deny feelings. To shut down and shut out. It is a long process and on occasion light from within would shine through bringing hope. 

So tearing down the walls, removing the armour.  Emerging from the self imposed exile of a long winter. How does one protect the self without building the wall keeping others out and denying feelings?

the need to share

So wondering now about this process and the expression that seems to be necessary. I feel like I just need to share. So this popped up on Twitter and it resounded. So sharing to remember it and sharing it to inspire and sharing it to aspire. 

charles a. murray

For creatives: You were once the kid who loved Magic. Now, you’re the Magician.  Practice your craft. Diligently. There are kids who still wanna go “oooooh” when you do your magic trick. The lil hater kids wanna laugh if they can expose you. Be inspired by the kid who says Ooooh.

opening

So I think this feeling of opening, emerging, after a long winter. It is opened up and brought about change within and one of the consequences of that change is feeling and to feel to not bury the feelings of pain and sorrow and they come they go I think it's going to be necessary to embrace those things when they come and to look at them and thank them in the move through them. And just as there are pains and sorrows and angers and fears there are also joys and giddy happiness is that the word, positives how to embrace those as well.

I really do think over time the walls or the armor or the whatever it is cocoon to protect and it didn't even protect it but that that false sense of invulnerability maybe and not even really being aware of all of the things that are lost through trying to become unhurtable.

layout possiblities

This is so very difficult.  

So I think when facing a situation when dealing with things or you know what's the next right thing. I think it is take action even if that actions the wrong action it can get fixed later but it is the taking of the action that moves everything forward you know something needs to be done. You do it if it's not right it'll get fixed if it's wrong or if it is right it will be right and it will be done or it will be started. So I'm looking at where to put pictures on a wall, a fairly insignificant act and I'm afraid to take the action. I don't know where it should be or where it should go or how it should look and I don't want to take the action in case it's wrong. The bedroom needs art and I don't even know what to start in here, what would be the appropriate art for the bedroom based on the things that I have?

Living room

Couch against the north living room wall. Three pictures behind the couch

Guitar on south wall

Dining table in nook by windows

Keffer  on east wall

Desk on east wall

Jerry in the entry

suffering is finate

So walking along. Thinking about feelings and love and being and questioning myself. And I've always thought that love is infinite. There is abundant love in the universe. And suffering is finite there is only so much  suffering in the universe. Part of the reason we do what we do is to relieve the suffering of others. The thought that sorrow is a choice. Just as love is abundant. Do we have a choice in love?

action Wu wi

So I'm not much of a student of philosophy. That is I'm not real sure where I fall in the order of things. I think my biggest influence is the Tao De Ching. The approach to being has a duality to it. Soft and supple binds and gives and overcomes. hard and brittle stand strong and yet breaks. There is light there is dark there's black there's white there's the ying and the yang and the aspects of the ying and the Yang with the white and the black within and balances achieved. And when spinning is the wheel spins you don't have black and white anymore it's all just shades of Gray. So I'm not real sure how all that plays and how that works and but it just feels normal. So on becoming. Last week several times I heard don't go find yourself create yourself. And that's the process of the past 50 years is creating the self. But I realize that the self that I am is not the self that I was meant to be. And that's real okay.

Wu wi the idea that when nothing is done nothing is left undone. It does not make any sense. We have to do and we have to act and we have to prepare for the future as individuals as a species as a community to move forward to go on so in that way things have to be done. But when nothing is done nothing is left undone. I think it's I don't have to have fear when nothing is feared there is nothing to fear. When I give up fear, then I can live in the moment. When I no longer worry about rejection the fear of rejection. It is not possible to be rejected. When I let go of the self I'm able to embrace the whole

overload trigger

I went from peaceful to overwhelmed in just a few moments this morning. It started by thinking about getting ready for SD. Moving stuff around. All the sudden I was not present in the moment but in the unknown future in my head. Skipped to shows, skipped to school, skipped to studio, skipped to travel. All over everywhere. Not enough time. Not enough of me. 

Solution. Be present. Make a list. Do what needs to be done today. Priority. Let it go when it arises, address it, make a note, what can I do about this right now? Take action if necessary. Thank you for reminding me. Let it go.

Gene Keys

 This is of interest. The Gene Keys

I want to explore more. I read a bit. It is deep. But I think the doors of perception open.